Doublethink

I run myself in circles, I don't know what I really beleive in.

I don't beleive in, I'm not a fan of, I'm not involved in... But I am, in my heart of hearts, my own mind, my own processor of the outside stimuli that struggle and push to be considered.

Ugh, I write about what is troubling me, without any semblance of care for any kind of order. But then there is, I see that order in my work, and there it is again, all undone. All my mind's work undone again by itself.

What am I and what do I beleive in? I think these are the "central" questions to everything. I think that the reason they are so impossible to answer is that everyone overcomplicates them with the human essence of themselves. That is to say, no one is onesided or simple. These things can't be answered simply, and then they might not be able to be answered at all. Words oversimplify what things are.

Yeah. So then, maybe it's best not to search for the answers themselves, but understand what goes into them.

Maybe.